what about book

August, 8 2009::7.32am::Kuantan

By

Marini

April is a month for us to celebrate the beauty of an object we call as a book.I feel so regret when I cannot go to the Book Fair held at PWTC last April.I missed the feelings of craziness looking for the books…the feel of engross turning page by page of the books and I missed the feel that I am in my own fantasy world just by looking at the stack of the books on the bookshelves.

A book is not only contain papers filled of a few ounce of ink written as words. It is more than that. It is full of story, knowledge, information and sometimes it contains words that can soothe us when we read them. Imagine the power of book that can change our life…forever…

Don’t believe me!!! Ok then…

A very common example, related to all of us…we read books (academic books) to pass in our examinations…agree or not, that’s what we did before, right…? so books change our life and now we have a job and we can survive today because the good deeds of a book to us. Please don’t try to deny it.

Another example, I have read about someone who read a self-enhancement book. When he finished read that book, he became a different person, a better person actually, because of what, because of a power of a book.

I read books in two situations – when there is no tv or when there is no internet near to me. I often read books in the train and sometimes if there is no seat then I will read while I am standing surround with cohort of people. Sometimes I notice that some of them are looking at me annoyingly seems that I want to show off. They maybe don’t understand the feelings of bored of doing nothing in a train. I am not a type of person that can only seat in the train, just staring outside the window or sometimes staring at the people coming in and out of the train.I need something more than that, something that can make me pleasure during sitting in the train then I choose to read a book.

I also read a book when waiting for my turn dealing at the bank counter, post office, waiting for the food order, while waiting for the bus, waiting for the lecturer in a lecture room or anywhere that need me to wait for something.So my friends see me as a bookworm. Podachit….mana ada…hello…I am not a bookworm ok…because for me a bookworm is a person who reading an academic books and he/she will remember all the facts from the books…me???only read novels …hahaha…so I am not a bookworm. But now I love to read an encyclopedia and you know what I just knew that Nile River is in Africa… huhuhu…well at least I know that before this Nile River is in Egypt, thank God Egypt is in Africa. (got to tell you that I am so poor in Geography) .I know a lot of things from that encyclopedia even I didn’t know that peach is in the family of roses.

Sometimes, I feel happy when I see people read in the train.I can feel that we are connected just by looking at them who have the same interest like me.I realize that, it is so difficult to see people read in the train and I seldom see people hold a book during travel with the train or bus. But I realize that some of them cannot read in the vehicles because they will feel dizzy when they do it and if that is the reason, then I can accept and understand that.

Well, I am so fond of reading not because someone had influenced me…it came naturally and I hope that my children will inherit my attitude. Hopefully…

My husband does not like read the books but he prefer to read articles via the internet.Well, it is ok with me as long as he loves to read. Knowledge can be obtained from the various of sources not just by reading books. People tend to find any information from the internet but I more prefer the conventional way. After all, I believe that all the knowledge from the internet are all from books, right?

Ok then, I need to stop now. I can feel that my back is ache…need to lay for a while. Well…baca buku baca gak…Quran pun ken baca gak k…

Chaw…till here for now…

We Are unique

22th April 2009::JMSK::1.58pm

I still can remember my ex-teacher said that human beings are unique.Everyone has different characters, different attitudes and acts differently towards something.So, we are so unique.Even Allah creates humans with variety of races and religions.For what…? for us to get know each other and to get along with each other to make this world as a harmony place to live.

I watched “Gol& Gincu” last day, there was a dialogue between a mother and a daughter. Her daughter keeps worrying about his boyfriend telling her she is not cukup Melayu since her dad is an American while her mom is Malaysian. She tries so hard to prove to her bf that she is a Malay girl, so she impresses his boyfriend by wearing baju kurung every time she meets him, watching Malay movies and even reads Malay novel.Her mom told her that being a Malay, Chinese, Indian doesn’t make any difference.We are unique, the most important thing is we respect each other as who we are.

Well, back to that girl, at the end of the day she realizes that she has her own unique characters. Pretending to be fully Malay is impossible to be done even though she trying so hard, even feels so embarrass while giving the merapu pantun.Lastly, she gave up and told her bf to accept her as whom she is. So, that’s it, her bf gets the picture and he just wants to let his gf knows that life is not all about going shopping, wearing fancy stuff and have a over-social-life. He wants her to explore some other worlds.What I understand from her bf message is, we are living in this world with a lot of people, we are not living in our “own world” and we have to keep remember that we are so unique so that we have to learn to respect others’ way of life.

Talking about uniqueness…as we know, different people has their different attitudes.But as I think deeply regarding of this matter don’t we notice that for certain attitudes, every one of us has them. For example, talking something bad about others (mengumpat la tu)… I believe most of us are like that.More examples, stealing money, bad temper, like to smoke, laugh loudly, talk-active, lazy, hardworking, amiable, ambitious, driven person, soft-spoken, like to sleep all the time, being selfish, arrogant, kind, humble, eccentric…I’m sure that some of us share the same attitudes.So I can say that, we cannot be unique based on attitudes because if I say that I am so particular about something, millions of people has the same attitude. If I say that I don’t like people using my stuff without permission, I think all of us will don’t like that too.

So the uniqueness of human beings can only be measured by using the scientific method and with science we can know we are different from other people by DNA and our finger prints.No one in this world shares the same DNA and finger prints and it makes us so unique. We are the only one in this world who has different DNA and finger print so this is the only way for crime investigators to catch the real criminals according to their DNA and finger prints that left at the crime scene. Amazing right…

Allah creates us with different of capability, special gift , weakness and strength, different talent meaning to say that not everyone can be a good singer, not everyone has IQ over 400, not everyone can curl his/her tongue, not everyone able to move his/her ears, not everyone can paint a masterpiece and so on.Again, we are unique although we still share a few same things.What we have to do is be grateful for what we have although we are poor, fat, ugly or what so ever, the most important thing is we have to know how to use our strengths and overcome our weaknesses so that we can be a better person and live without complaining this and that.Find our own meaning of happiness in our life although the definition of happiness of life will be changed time to time depends on certain situation and keep believing that Allah is Maha Adil by creating us with different kind of characters and talents.Live with lots of L.O.V.E and make fully use of our strength to archive the true meaning of life…happiness, peaceful n amar makruf & nahi mungkar..

Remember…there is inside you all the potential to be whatever you want to be, all the energy to do whatever you want to do. Imagine yourself to be what ever you want to be, doing what you want to do. Take one step each day towards your dreams. Though there is a time for you too difficult to continue, hold on to your dreams. One day, you will wake up in the morning to find that you are the person you dreamt of, be whatever you wanted to be, do whatever you want to do, simply because you have the courage to believe in your potential and to hold to your dreams…

With this uniqueness, we can cherish our life with love and happiness.I really hope that people who think he is so powerful, it doesn’t mean that you can make fun of the weak people. Without the weak person, there will be no Y.O.U….!! Remember that!(Dedicated to the Zionist and US leader…get ready for the people like us (Muslims) who you think so weak to wake up to fight you back…! Allah promises something for us…just wait and see)

Still hoping for our world to be a better place to live before we are living in Akhirat…

So What?

1st Feb 2009::JMSK::11.41am

Too many things that I want t o express and share with you but everything is stuck in my head.So there is no specific topic to discuss right now.I am trying to change the way I’m writing my blog from now on. No more writing about myself here, telling what happened to me, what I was doing lately & express my feelings towards someone/something. I have my own diary to report all of those things. Uik… ( but I like to read my friends’ blog, writing about themselves.From there, I know what they are doing and so on)…

Now I’m thinking… mmm… wait…..wait…

So what am I going to write here?! Politics? (Yuck…not my type) Sports? ( Lagi la… zero knowledge, I just know a few of athletes…Nicol David, Shalin, David Beckham, Michael Owen, Tiger Woods, The Sideks’ brothers…that’s all, hahaha) Economics? (not my field…what I know is when supply is increasing and demand is decreasing then the price is more cheaper but when demand is high and supply is low then the price will be so expensive until it will become inflation…this is what I understood when I learnt Economics in sem.2 Diploma 8 years ago…kakaka) Social Science ( So-So lar since I’m in this field right now but still don’t have guts to write about it, lack of knowledge) Science ( My favorite topic since it is so related with us…but I prefer to read about it rather than to write about it)

It seems that I don’t have any idea today…trying so hard from letting my fingers to type common things…ok ok ok….a few things about myself…huhuhuhu…..

• busy with my work life…I’ll be conducting the Math Day in POLISAS in this coming March.Thanks to Mak Mah who taught me so much about how to organize Math Day in UiTM back then…I applied so many things and cedok 90% of the ideas. Hahaha…
• trying so hard to spend my time wisely between my T&L, Math Day & Maple Projects
• still in dilemma whether to get out from that house or not
• feel sucks with a few of people
• still wondering when I will get married
• still worrying about my mom’s health
• my father’s health too…
• trying so hard to save a penny day by day (jimat..kena jimat)
• trying again to be myself as MARINI MOHD THAIB, not someone else.

Thank You…everyone

18th Dis 2008::Kuarters::2.03am

Dear readers,

I was awake at 1.30am…cannot close my eyes again…keep wondering what am I suppose to do…Qiamullail…cannot…”bendera Jepun”…then I decide to  get back to sleep…still awake…may be too many things to think…anyway…forget about it…

I would like to express my gratitude to everyone who came to my engagement ceremony…special thanks to Kak Ati, without her there is no hantaran… what a lovely decoration. Thanks to Farin,my official photographer for taking a “wow” pictures…still waiting for the special edition from her..ahaks…I’ll upload more pictures taken by her after I received the softcopy from her..so that u can evaluate her arts and if u interested to hire her for your special occasion, let me know…i trust her capability n so can u…trust me…(promote2)…hahaha

then my special thanks goes to my sister…without her, i dun think that i can get through this…then thanks to my parents for allowing me to get engaged although there were some issues regarding of this engagement…

Finally,thanks to all my friends who came to my house…big thanks to you… thank you…thank you….all of you have made my engagement ceremony become more meaningful…although some of you have been witness of the embarrassing moment of my life..well I dun mind…

Nothing else to say…just please pray for me that my fiance and I will be together forever and ever…hope that we can cherish our love with joy and happiness until we are separated by death… Amin…

Too many problems…too many conflicts…really hope to gain strength from God to move on…Life must goes on..yar…well…still waiting for my eyes to feel sleepy…

Till here…sleep…sleep…

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3rd Dec 2008 :: JMSK :: 4.47pm

Telling you the truth, all this time I read a newspaper by reading the title only ignoring the details of the stories.However recently I force myself to get know about what actually is happening in our world.Why is that??? It is because I need to attend an interview for my job confirmation.Usually they will ask questions regarding of current issues especially education issues. As a person who doesn’t like to read a newspaper it is hard for me to spend times read from the front page to the last page.I realized that it is not so hard to read a newspaper and I really wonder why I didn’t like to read it before this since I am a bookworm…hahaha…it sounds silly right…

Well..now I spend over 30%of my income buying books every month… but most of my friends like to spend their money to buy stuff like shoes, blouses, cosmetics bla…bla…bla… well… it is ok for me as long as they are not using my money…ihik… It is individual’s right how to spend his/her money… and it is not a bad attitude to buy something that you want to wear it such as shoe, outfit etc…as long as you are not wasting your money to something that you even don’t need it.One of my friends said that “ kita dah penat2 keje…kena lah spend duit utk diri sendiri.. beli apa shja yg kite nak, nti dah x de duit,baru nak menyesal…dah keje ni penampilan kena jaga…so kena la beli baju lawa2 kan…so Mar..jgn rasa bersalah kalau nak beli2 baju or kasut…u deserve to have it…” sooo…mmm… I can say that I have bought a lot of baju la kasut la… and I feel regret to spend my money into it and furthermore everyone knows that I am not like that…my friends see me as a simple person…wearing a simple stuff but when they see me wearing something different…they will talk talk talk talk and talk…kutuk la namanya tu…huh…what the hell…lantak la…me myself also can feel that I am turning to someone else… wasting money buying things that I really don’t even need them…well as my friend said…beli je…utk kepuasan sendiri…

mmm…got to go now…must do some preparation for my interview tomorrow

…x baca apa lagi ni… today’s interviewer is so strict..saiko gile… jerit2 x tentu pasal… aiyooo..so scared… Ya Allah…please help me…

A lot of problems now…especially my mom’s health condition…blablabla…mmm… tabahkan hati..

K chaw…

Reader’s Digest

13 November 2008 :: JMSK :: 9.47am

I am a Reader’s Digest subscriber now… I was intended to buy my own RD for a long time…but for sure la at that time I dun have money…u know la one issue will cost you about RM15…when I was a student I dun have that much money to spend for every month buying that kind of thing…(alasan…beli menda lain boleh la kan)…

Now…yes now… I will receive RD issue every month until 2010… may be people will say that…why you want to waste your money to buy something that you can get for free?? You can read RD in the library what??? …. Argghh… I dun mind… I tell you what… there are people out there who are keen of something and they will spend even millions $$ to buy something that they are really desire… I read in a newspaper about people going crazy to buy unique car registration number and they paid huge amount of money…even it costs more than a million $$…and Sultan *** (dirahsiakan) also wastes his money to buy billion cost of jet planes…and even he paid million $$ to invite Michael Jackson to have a dinner with him for only 1 night… mmm… I have read about this particular guy from somewhere in this world will do anything to buy a collection of books and he was willing to kill people to get the last series of the book who bought it before he did…

Argh…what a lame…what the bad examples that I had given you…all the cases are not the same with my case… their cases are more about buying something that other people will not have if they buy that thing…meaning to say…they are the only person in this world who have that thing…sounds exotic and amazing right…back to my case…RD… lor…if I buy RD doesn’t mean that I am the only one who have it, right…? Hahaha… ok ok…back to my point…my point is if we really want to archive something, we will do anything to obtain that thing no matter how hard the effort we have to make. Our mind will focus to our goal and just imagine how great we will feel if we can set a goal and after that work hard for it and feel satisfied after achieve our goal…we will feel that our life is complete…

Back to RD…I have been longing to subscribe this magazine for a long time…but I dun have much opportunity to buy it…so I keep my desire until I started working…then one day this particular salesman came to my office and promoted his products…variety of magazines for subscribed… there were Times, Health Magazine, News Week, bla..bla.. bla… and Reader’s Digest… actually there was a package…we need to subscribe Times for 3 years and we will get free one year issue of RD…then I asked him whether I can subscribe RD only or not…then he compromised with me…so after persuading him, he allowed me to subscribe RD…and now…I feel happy to be a RD subscriber!!!

What About Math…

25th September 2008::JMSK::1.54pm

This post is dedicated specially to all my students….for those who read my blog…ada ke???huhuhu

Math… I love math so much…but I don’t say that I am really good in Math or I’m so genius in this subject… even I don’t get a good result in add math in SPM although my Modern Math was A1…

As time goes by…I realized that I love Math so much and because of that I struggled to obtain good results in Math subjects when I was in UiTM…and Alhamdulillah I received 4 times of “Anugerah Cemerlang Matematik” in my faculty and I even received the highest award at that time (Pingat Dato’ Ali)… I am not show off with my achievement, what I am trying to say is I want to explain to you that when you have keen of something, you heart and your mind will automatically work for it. Let say if you like to cook, you always trying to make a very special dish every time you want to cook…another example…if you like to read a comic, you will read all your favorite comics (sometimes expensive comics no matter what it will cost you)…meaning to say you will do anything to get what you want to achieve if and only if you have interested in it. In other words, you won’t have any effort to get something that you don’t even like it…

What I am going to tell you is related with my students… most of them, they don’t like Math and their basics are soooo poor… now you can imagine without interest and without a good foundation in Math, they really cannot do in Math… even I gave them simple calculation (addition, subtraction, multiplication, division, fraction) …. They can not do it… even I gave them open book test also they cannot do it…

I almost cried when I see my students like this… I am so sad because they are Malays… anak bangsa aku… apa nak jadi… I know that Poli is trying to provide a place for the students “yang result SPM mmg x layak nak mtk keje” to further their studies but what really makes me feel so sad is these students don’t take full opportunity that have given by our govnmt. to study and become “someone” in future…

I helped them a lot…tp aku gak yg sakit hati balik…mmg sakit hati…try to imagine, I told them that the test will be in a week time…be prepared…as time I want to give them the test dgn selamba diorg ckp…”Cik x ready lagi…x study lagi”… that time only Allah knows my feelings… what I have done to them quite drastic and made them apologize to me but again…it happened again yesterday when I gave them Quiz…all the time (quiz) I was nagging to them and I tried to motivate to them…but I was fuming yesterday… so angry till I said something that made them stunned…

What made me so angry was…they told me “bukan x blh buat cik…malas je”… now you know what kind of students Politeknik produce… well, I am not mentioning all of them… a few of them only who have attitude problem…

Got to go… I have calculus class after this…got to do some preparation

Till then…chaw

work…work…work…

13 September 2008 :: 4.43 pm :: JMSK

I am in the office…doing my admin tasks… It seems that I dun have enough time to finish my works in weekdays so I have to come to the office in weekends… in fact every weekends I’ll be here…alone and sometimes with my officemates…but most of the time…alone…and every day I’ll stay back until 6 to 6.30 pm to do my works.. and even I always bring my works home almost every day… why??? He always tells me that I have to manage my time wisely so that I dun have to work in extra hour…but I tried my best and I failed to finish my works during an office hour…and I dun know why is that happened to me… I realized that others dun work like me…am I workaholic or what??? **sigh**…

Who said that being a lecturer is so easy???go to the class…ajar lebih kurang and get out from the class and your work is finish for that day…bullshit… ooops…a lecturer is not suppose to use that kind of word…hahaha…

Being a lecturer is more than go to the class…teach…and go home… if you really want to feel what is like being a lecturer…replace me for a day…then you’ll know how it feels…do you dare???hahaha…

Well….i dun mind doing extra works in extra hours…because of what…? Lillahitaala… so sometimes when people keep talking that I am so stupid mengabdikan diri pada keje lebih masa yg x dpt duit…I dun care and I dun mind….aku niat kerana Allah… in fact when I work so hard until I dun have enough time for myself … I dun mind…because I feel honored to do my work and I feel so satisfied… and I feel so happy when my students appreciate what I am doing just for the sake of their victory.. That feeling is so nice…hati aku berbunga2….and I am so glad to help others especially my students…

Too much writing… I need to mark my students’ paper… in fact the whole day I spend my time marking papers only…I have about 200 papers to look at… huh…it’s ok… sometimes when I see my students can answer my questions very well…I am smiling… but sometimes when my students cannot answer my questions at all I wonder whether they are not well prepared or I dun know how to teach them…hmmm…. Think….think…

K got to go…the time is running… oh yes…I changed my blog theme already…hope you like it…simple but nice…I like bird and I like blue colour … so a great combination… ahaks…I knew the new features in friendster after reading my friend’s blog…her blog is green in color…so nice…

Oops…the clock is ticking…chaw…

Got to to to bazaar Ramadhan in a while…got to finish some stuff…

Innalillah…

August 6, 2008 :: POLISAS :: 5.45pm

My best friend’s father passed away last Monday…Al-fatihah…to Piza,be strong girl… I am so sorry that I can not to be there when you need someone’s shoulder to cry… I was too shocked to hear that news…Innalillah…

Go-go Mar

16th July 2008 :: 1.12pm :: JMSK,POLISAS

I was attended my first class just now…nervous??? A little bit…but I was so excited to start teaching…as long as I don’t have to stay in the office in a long period…hahaha…
Well…there are 19 students in my class.. thank God….Alhamdulillah… my other class has about 50 students…huhuhu…giler…

Well so far so good.. they seem such great students…good behavior so far…laughing at most part of my humor…nasib baik…kalo x, jadik mcm badut aku kat depan td.. hahaha

I gave them a lot of motivation regarding of Math…as everyone knows, poli students are so poor in Math…in fact they can not evaluate a simple calculation …how sad… so I mentioned to them, to be good in Math…they have to practice…practice. .practice… and I gave them some other tips too…

Can’t hardly wait to go the other classes… semangat beb… well I promised to my students just now that I will be a good lecturer to them and they were smiling and some of them said “Amin”…and they also promised to me that they will work more harder and do their best… I hope so…

Ok…got to go…
I will not updating my blog may be for a long time since I am busy teaching my beloved students…so guys…you just keep blogging…dun worry, I will spend some times to read your blog…chaw…