Decision to make…mmm…KPM or TPM
21st June 2006 : Lab B, Fakulti Polisi & Undang-Undang; 12:20 pm
Hi guyz,
It has been so many times I’m not update my blog.Well,dun have idea to write in here…
I think I do need some advices form u guyz…to anyone who comes across to my blog…please leave your sugesstion…
Here we go…my problem or I can say that, my dilemma…
The story goes like this…well…I’m a Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia (KPM) Scholarship holder. I’m suppose to further my studies in Master in Education at KUITTHO in this coming July.(follow the contract).So,I will become a lecturer at the Politeknik after complete my Master…I dun have any problem with that…
The problem is Dr. Arsmah (my beloved lecturer) and the Dean of my faculty (FTMSK) ordered me to be a lecturer at UiTM. In other words, they were asking me to break the contract with the KPM. The consequence of breaking the contract is I have to pay the compensation abaout RM60,000. They (KPM) just sponsored me about RM20,000….in my understanding, if I want to break the contract but still do the services in the government sector, in my case is UiTM, then the VC of UiTM must deal with KPM…the problem is, I dun want VC to get involve with this matter,,,furthermore, I’m nobody…so I dun think that VC want to waste his time for me..
The thing is, breaking the contract and taking the VC in this matter is not the big problem…it can be done by help from the dean…the problem now is ME…I dun have any guts to stay at UiTM,,, taking the Tenaga Pengajar Muda Scholarship (TPM) and be a lecturer at UiTM and at the same time leading the e-learning project (teaching Math using Maple)…I just dun have enough confident to do all that things…in addition, I just getting bored to live with the hope from someone…I want to do whatever I want to do…I dun want somebody just point their fingers to me and keep asking me to follow their orders…I want to be free…I want to follow my heart,my instinct…
I dun know why I really want to go to KUITTHO though I realise that my oppurtunity to have high salary is by being a lecturer at UiTM rather than at the Politeknik. I dun know…the reason is maybe, I want to try to be independent…first time in my life….going out farther from my hometown,,,I want to explore the new world…I want to know what is going on out of the box ( out of Selangor I meant)…For your information, I never go out Selangor since I was born until now… To be honest, I can go to the overseas to further my studies if I take the TPM scholarship. So, it can solve my problem actually…that means I can go more faaaarther,,,but the thing is…I still want to choose KPM rather that TPM…I have listed down the pro n contra, but still, I dun get into the conclusion…why ?? why ??
mmm…may be u dun understand much about this problem…there are certain people (some of my friends) who know about this and they also have given me their opinions regarding of this matter… thanks guyz…well…mmm…I dun want to think about this anymore…
choices to choose….>>>follow my heart (go to KUITTHO) …or …. follow Dr. Arsmah’s request (if I fail to follow her request, it will dissapointed her so much)….
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