What About Friends…???

May 15 2008 :: 3.00 pm :: in my bedroom

Everyone has friends… we make friends when we were still
young… we met a lot of friends in our childhood… we can define a friend in many
very different ways… some people say a friend is only a person we meet at
schools, at works or at our neighborhoods… not more than that… for this kind of
people, they treat a friend as a person they see as a human being just as same
as them…

 

Well… it is different from me… I see a friend is more than
that… I grew up amongst my friends… honestly, I spent most my times with my
friends not with my family… even my mom
had said that I was too mean… put my friends in higher priority in my life than
my own family… even my bf also said the same thing… I cannot blame them… it is
true… I won’t deny it…

 

There were a situation when I have to choose to be with my
family or to be with my friends… you can guess that I chose to be with my
friends… that was the day my mom said that I was being selfish… well… I really
can’t think clearly that moment… but what to say…let the past be the past…
unfortunately, that behavior becomes my habit…my common attitude… until now I
choose to be with my friends rather to be with my family… I don’t even think about my family’s
feelings… I only think about my friends’ feelings… for me…my friends play a main
role in my life to make me as what I am right now… I have my own reasons why I am telling this…
the reasons that other people won’t understand…

 

However… there was an incident that change my feelings about
friends… and I can’t doubt that what my mom and my bf had said about I am so
kind to my friends who love to take advantage on me was right… and I am so
depressed to have a friend like that… they have opened my eyes to see the real
person of her… I just can’t believe that she can do such thing to me… I trust
her… I love her… and I’m always loving her… she is my soul mate…back then… but
I am not sure whether she is still my soul mate or not… when I need her, she is
not there for me… I am so frustrated… I just can pray that she will be happy
forever and I’m always be there for her as always I did to her…

 

Well… it is ok… I still have a few friends who will be there
whenever I need them… and I am so grateful to have them as my friends…

 

I just want her to know that… when we have a friend… we must
take a good care of him/her… don’t be so selfish and don’t seek friend just for
help… don’t ever take advantage to a friend… make friends with your heart… not
with money, status or so what ever… always be there for your friend…

 

My dear friend who broke my heart… please read this
carefully… “Never break 4 things in your life – Trust, Promise, Relation and
Heart because when they break they don’t make noise but pains a lot”…

 

Till now…bye…

 

~Mar~

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